Wednesday, February 20, 2013

I don't want to know the reasons why love keeps right on walking down the line. I don't want to stand between you and love. Honey, I just want you to feel fine.

So I'm running low on batteries. I started this new year with some dramatic losses and changes that demotivated me in every aspect of my life. It's just that I have uncovered so many different rules or themes or hints while I navigate these rocky adulthood shores and maybe I need to share them with the world. Or maybe I'm not quite ready yet, seeing as I am always scratching my head at the weird things that are always happening here.

I am tired tired tired. (Nope, not knocked up). People around me keep complaining a lot and it seems like everybody has their worst! year! ever! (And 2013 is only 51 days old!) and all those negative feelings are contagious. I also had some pretty blue days.. over thinking about something and feeling oh-so-sorry for myself at the end.. and the next day -until today- I feel a galaxy away from how I was feeling then because when I realise all o' sudden "Oh! It's not supposed to be like this!" I decided to just relax and move onto something that supposed to be like this. I don't know whether it's the best decision or not, but it's kinda cruel.. somehow.. umm.. not sure.

I think I need a new "home". A new shoulder to cry on. A comforting hug. And a reliable person that I can depend upon.

♥, Me.