Sunday, October 30, 2011

Illusion never changed into something real I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn.

Sometimes, you just have to be yourself, even if that means your best friend can't look you in the eyes anymore. When you didn't do you best, be proud of yourself. Say I love you, when you both know you didn't mean it. Apologize, when you think you did nothing wrong. Lie to your boyfriend about loving KOC. Rage quit a job, even though you have absolutely no money. Pretend you had an orgasm to feed someone's ego. Bite your tongue, when your superior is talking to you about how important it is that you work over time on weekends. And sometimes you have to tell yourself that you have got it all figured out. Even though you have no clue what is coming next or where your life is headed.

Never regrets, only experiences that mold you into the person that you need to be. Never give up, because weaknesses and negativity lead you nowhere. And never have plans or expectations, because nothing is ever as it seems, and it never will be. Never lead yourself to believe that you are only worth so much and there's no point in improving, because the truth is you are worth however much you make yourself worth. Make yourself worth a lot, you earn wisdom and respect that way.

Me? I'm tired of always being a good person, only to find myself mistreated and mistaken. I'm tired of acting like the tough cookie on the outside and really be broken on the inside. Honestly, I feel like I went from being stupid to being even more stupid. And because of that, I feel like one of the most intelligent person EVER. Rule of thumb. If you believe it, they will too. Lastly, no matter how much you learn, you'll never have it all figured out.

♥, Me