The One Where Maya Gets Upset.

I am very unhappy when someone cancels our appointment. Especially when it occurs because of 'bf/gf stuff'. Probably I have a good reason for this disappointment: my bf and I are kind of person that "putting relationship and friendship in a same number". Why? Because we have our own life and we have to respect each other's. None of us can control another's life, and I'm feeling comfort with that 'rules'.

But I fully understand, different person has different perspective about this and I have to deal with it. Some people change their priority order when they start into a relationship. That's why when my friend started into a relationship I always 'back up'. So it means I'll spend less time with her. Because I know, she wants to be with her bf everyday and will act each day with him soooooo important, like if she doesn't spend every second attached to his hip the universe will go into complete chaos. I know it's up to her to make the choice of how she wants to spend her time. And I don't depend on my friends to fulfill my time *roll my eyes*.

My hypothesis is people depend on their friends for support and comfort just like they know they can depend on their friend (kinda confusing, eh?). Let's imagine. We must've a difficult relationship with our bf/gf and we will REALLY need our friend when it gets really bad. So why on earth you throw up your friends out of your days when you get a special person whom you expected will french-kissing you in every weekend?

So I am very upset right now because my friend and I supposed to hang out today and it's kinda selfish of me to be upset because she did promise and broke it because she prefers to weekending with her bf (I get upset easily when people break their promises even it's something little like promising to call me back or something). Okay, I'm really sorry, but this fact is kinda gross to me. I'm terribly sorry.